When you suffer from an invisible illness things are more challenging because you need to deal also with the pain of not looking sick. It feels awful being in pain, living in pain and not being believed. When you have to constantly explain yourself and convince others that your sickness is real and you are not  hypochondriac, it is a horrible feeling.


Take a look at my photo above. At a superficial glance, there’s nothing wrong with me. I look just fine! That’s where everyone is wrong! Little you or others know about the war going on under my skin, about the long list of invisible symptoms I experience.  I used to get annoyed whenever I was judged based on my appearance, while I was struggling to look “normal”. A few years back I took another approach: I started to Lyme educate everyone. I did my best to explain all that entails being a Lyme sufferer.


Once in a way when I attended a social gathering or when I met someone new, I was faced with the the same issue: everyone kept on telling me I looked healthy and that I may had a wrong diagnosis. At one point I had given up using makeup just because I could not stand one more comment regarding my appearance. I wished to look sick, just to be in line with everyone else, to make it easier for others to believe me. Their disbelief and ignorance made me feel worse than I already was.


Whenever asked  what was the most annoying symptom that I had to put up with, I said that it depended on the day I was having. That’s when I saw people raising an eyebrow in disbelief. Those who took an interest in finding out more about the details of my invisible illness know that I always tried not to burden them with my daily cocktail of pains and symptoms. Once they heard me describing how the burning felt like, they understood my misery.


The burning under my skin is by far one of the most disturbing symptoms. It never leaves me. It simply increases or decreases its intensity depending on my other symptoms.  I also get shifting pain in the muscles, joints and bones, combined with electrical pulses, twitching prickly tingly muscles. All of these things happen within my body on a daily basis. Despite all this, I still manage to put a smile on my face and carry on with my day. Life goes on! I learnt how to deal with all these.


 Neurological Chronic Lyme Disease (Neuroboreliosis) takes things to another level. Once the illness starts to affect your nervous system, you have to deal with a new ordeal of symptoms. Some of them are quite strange and bizarre, though not everyone gets to experience all of them in the same time. Some people have these sensations during a flare, a herx (Herxheimer reaction) while others have to deal with them on a daily basis. I count myself among the “lucky” ones who still have them.


When Borrelia Burgdorferi (the main culprit for Lyme) and Bartonella (co-infection) are hijacking your nervous system, you get to experience some unusual sensations, unknown before like:

  • crawling sensation – a creepy feeling that something is crawling around on or under your skin, throughout your body
  • freezing or burning sensation
  • buzzing or vibrating – better described as a TGV train passing through your body making each single cell vibrate
  • numbness
  • tingling (mostly in the limbs)- being pricked at once with thousands of needles. It does not feel anything like acupuncture. It is a totally different sensation.


How can I translate into words the burning sensation? Imagine that you went to the beach and got a severe sunburn which is making your body and skin ache. What do you do? You avoid touching your skin in order not to feel the pain or the tingling burning sensation. Now try to picture how it feels applying a frozen ice cube on your skin, all over that area that just got sunburnt. I am sure you just shrug your shoulders trying to visualize it. This is the best explanation I could come up with for the burning under my skin. Only difference is that it feels that way throughout the entire body. Some days it might shift from one area to another and it can change its intensity.


The craziest sensation is when you experience this burning on your head. Generally when you have neurological Lyme (Neuroborreliosis) , you get the privilege to feel it. That is a bit different. It feels like you have a slug or an army of ants moving slowly leaving an icy trail on your skull.


After reading about my daily ordeal, next time you meet someone touched by an invisible illness, please don’t tell him he looks good or healthy! Refrain yourself from saying something that would make him feel worse. Try to be creative. Make an effort and come up with something new!




  1. I have neurological Lyme as well. My back always feels like I have sunburn. My memory is poor. My hair is falling out and the depression is so bad I have contemplated suicide.

  2. Thank you for taking the time to read and leave a comment! From one spoonie to another, please don’t give up the fight! You are not alone! Did you consider talking to someone at an international online chatting services (suicidal prevention)? Maybe you have already done it. They can’t cure Lyme but they can’t offer help with the depression by providing emotional support. There are many websites such as:,
    Stay safe and be strong!

  3. I was diagnosed a year after 2 bulls eye rashes , suffering horrible migraines, Bella polsey, chronic fatigue , brain fog and memory loss. With 2 co infections Babesia and Erlichia . A year of medications while keeping my job carrying mail outside in all elements and walking 8 miles a day. I was a go getter. Mepron, doxycycline and another handful of other pills and detox oils to help with herxing. I felt good , it was hell but at last I felt better..then a family tragedy happened and symptoms all back plus hearing loss and vision. Now out of work over a year surgery on both arms cubical and carpel tunnel surgery. Chronic migraine and no energy pain all over. No diagnosis bloodwork to a “ LL doctor” they would know I am battling my coinfections again. I have neuropathy, burning on both upper arms that causes me to want to itch. My
    Bloodwork shows chronic infection. But not one of my doctors are LL . I have called Boston and there is a 3 year wait for an infectious disease doctor who is LL. I am so afraid that if I don’t get treated soon they will go deeper into my nervous system. I gave up on doctors for a while and promised myself I would not give up this time but it is frustrating when they won’t even consider the co infections.

    1. Hi Ann! You got two bulls eye rashes? I don’t know how you managed to do your job while being on Mepron! I can relate to some parts of your story. First of all, thank you for sharing it here! Battling Lyme it ain’t easy! secondly, I learnt that you need to be mentally strong in order to keep some of the symptoms under control. Strong emotions can bring back a lot of symptoms.
      As for the doctors, I find that either they rush into giving one a diagnosis (which in most of the cases is not accurate) or they simply try to treat the symptoms and not the cause. A LL usually looks at all pieces of the puzzle and then comes up with a treatment plan. Speaking of LLs, did you try asking on certain FB Lyme groups about LLs in a neighbour state, or somewhere that is not too far from you?
      Also you may want to look into the Buhner protocol, it might help.

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